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‘The decisive question for man is: Is he related to something infinite or not? That is the telling question of his life. Only if we know that the thing which truly matters is the infinite can we avoid fixing our interest upon futilities, and upon all kinds of goals which are not of real importance. Thus we demand that the world grant us recognition for qualities which we regard as personal possessions: our talent or our beauty. The more a man lays stress on false possessions, and the less sensitivity he has for what is essential, the less satisfying is his life. He feels limited because he has limited aims, and the result is envy and jealousy. If we understand and feel that here in this life we already have a link with the infinite, desires and attitudes change. In the final analysis, we count for something only because of the essential we embody, and if we do not embody that, life is wasted.
In our relationships to other men, too, the crucial question is whether an element of boundlessness is expressed in the relationship. The feeling for the infinite, however, can be attained only if we are bounded to the utmost. The greatest limitation for man is the "self"; it is manifested in the experience: “I am only that!” Only consciousness of our narrow confinement in the self forms the link to the limitlessness of the unconscious. In such awareness we experience ourselves concurrently as limited and eternal, as both the one and the other. In knowing ourselves to be unique in our personal combination – that is, ultimately limited – we possess also the capacity for becoming conscious of the infinite. But only then!’
We are stuck in dualistic thinking – us and them, black and white, liberal and conservative. Leslie Temple-Thurston offers a practical and theoretical guidebook to escaping the binary, entering into the higher oneness of all things.
The Marriage of Spirit begins with a divorce. In 1971, Leslie Temple-Thurston found herself in a heated debate with her husband over the relative merits of science and art, empiricism and intuition. In the aftermath of that night, Temple-Thurston had a ‘vision’, wherein the deeper unity between the two sides of their argument was revealed to her, along with a glimpse of the eternal oneness underlying all the false dualities of our earthly domain. After her husband questioned her sanity, Temple-Thurston tried to repress these revelations (becoming a ‘closet mystic’), returning to her life as a new mother and wife. Yet the tap-tap-tapping of her unconscious would not let go, not until she eventually rejected the cyclic fears and desires of her outer personality and embraced the cosmic self within. The marriage could not survive her transformation.
Progressing through intensive spiritual growth in the 1980s, Temple-Thurston believes she was able to leave behind these wounds and entanglements through shedding her ego and overcoming the roller coaster of earthly highs and lows. In 1990, she met her future life-partner, Brad Laughlin, with whom she further developed a programme for spiritual growth and co-wrote The Marriage of Spirit (2000). Yet the titular ‘marriage’ actually refers to the wedding of opposites: the breakdown of duality and the recognition of the eternal unity of all things. Indeed, raised in South Africa during apartheid, Temple-Thurston found herself constantly beset by the false binaries of black and white, us and them, powerful and powerless. But through the congruence of her mystical experience within she was eventually able to source the deeper symbiosis that had been so lacking without.
We are caught swinging between constant dualisms (for example, male and female, love and hate, pain and pleasure, chaos and order, sacred and secular, insecurity and confidence, positive and negative). Every side seems to have its opposite latent within it; for example, over-confidence often bespeaks a deeper insecurity and moments of pleasure are eventually replaced by moments of pain. This is the ‘swinging pendulum of consciousness’, wherein we rotate back and forth between the two sides of seemingly inescapable opposites. Yet becoming aware of these poles allows us to diagnose our habits, cycles and imbalances, recognising how we bounce back and forth between extremes. Temple-Thurston prescribes Polarity Exercises, where the reader journals their thoughts and feelings then goes back through the text and highlights emotionally weighted terms, using a dictionary to find their antonyms. This enables them to identify and reflect upon imbalances that emerge by leaning too far in either direction.
According to Temple-Thurston, all was one in the beginning. There were no distinctions, no separations, no dualisms in eternity. Then, somehow – in a mysterious process she likens to a Judeo-Christian fall – this unity was shattered, and the individual Soul distinguished itself from the world for the first time. This androgynous Soul then separated further, forging the binary of male and female. From here, the cracks continued spreading indefinitely, splintering out into all the false fractures and dualisms of our contemporary culture. Our past lives, as well as our lopsided experiences in this life, have further imprinted such dualities upon us, causing us to spiral away from true balance.
Many of us try to avoid the negative side of these dualisms through positive thinking, repressing trauma and negative desires into the unconscious, attempting to change our material circumstances for the better, and so on. However, insofar as the two sides of duality are linked, you cannot indulge one without arousing the other. We must accept that our true self is not defined by the dualisms we experience in our ego or personality (for example, thinking we are skinny or fat), but by the hidden oneness we have with all things. To achieve this, we must cultivate within ourselves what Temple-Thurston calls a ‘Witness’, whereby observing our ego from the outside prevents us from being governed by its subjective highs and lows. Because our true self exists beyond ego, through meditation and ‘the way of neutrality’ we can transcend our binary patterns. For example, instead of oscillating between insecurity and arrogance we can embrace humility. Temple-Thurston suggests we create what she calls word ‘Triangles’. Write down two opposite sides of a dualism you are stuck rotating between, then draw upward lines to where they might meet in the middle at a more unified juncture. This helps us to identify our dualistic patterns as well as the higher unities that can help us escape them. Then, like ‘a cork bobbing on a stormy sea, we are unaffected by the waves – we are unsinkable.’
In one sense, the individual ego that the Western world has often defined as its truest self – with its personality, emotions, experiences, pride and insecurity – is now transcended. Does this mean that awakening our divine Witness eradicates the individual identities and differences that set us apart within the world at large, only to be swallowed up into a homogenous, uniform state of humanity? Temple-Thurston is aware of this concern and maintains that ‘unity does not mean uniformity’, but rather ‘unity in diversity’ in the same way that a good marriage does not negate your spouse’s individuality but rather helps draw it forth.
Merging mysticism and modern psychology, The Marriage of Spirit provides potent insights into the self and its recurrent patterns. The second half of the work is composed almost entirely of practical exercises, such as journalling, word associations, meditation guides and more.
In addition to introducing a wealth of psychological insights, the philosophically inclined will find in this book an abundance of pressing questions to keep them occupied: What am I? Am I my personality? Am I defined by my past failures and successes? Is there escape from the seemingly unending cycles of my emotions and actions, as I ricochet from one false hope to the next? Will humanity ever cease to fracture what remains or is there a way up and beyond the dyads of us and them, black and white, rich and poor, conservative and liberal, love and hate? What way leads to the fount of eternal oneness that escapes all fractures?
Copyright © 2002 by CoreLight Publishing.
